Our 1st Anniversary is today!!

Hepi 1st Anniversary to us!!

alhamdulillah..it's been 1 year since we tied the knot =) kejap je rase.. well, it has been a challenging+fun+happiest moments for us through out our first year of married life..yela banyak mende kena sesuaikan diri..with each other, families, frens and habits too..

by the time i'm typing this entry, tinggal lagi 30 mins before todays ended..we didn't go out for any celebrations or dinner..no cards(yet..) -maybe those need to be postponed..enuff with a 'happy anniversary' wishes to each other and still spending our time together:)

why no celebration on this special day?? FIL was admitted to hospital for a minor surgery this morning and hubby not feeling so well..me too! (i think so..) coz my nose da gatal2 nak selsema agaknye..

pretty much nothing today..just spending half day at HKL..and now teman hubby tengok bola (smbil main internet..hihi)

nvm..we'll do better in next years of celebration hehe..no rush!

well..last but not least, latest news - we're waiting for something..wait and see =)

berpantang ari ke-15

hari ni masuk ari ke-15 aku berpantang..as Wan (my nenek) said, i'll have to berpantang for 24 days only..sebab masa gugur tu, janin baru nak 2 bulan je..kecik lagi so xpela..kalo dah 3mths n above, tu yg kena pantang bersungguh2 tu n lebih teruk pantangnye dari orang yang beranak..

so ape Do's and Don'ts mase aku berpantang ni? ni sket sebanyak:-

DONT's
- xleh makan buah n sayur yg sejuk2 mcm buah tembikai, sayur bayam, cendawan..n byk lagi..
- xleh mkn ikan yg bisa2 such as ikan pari..sembilang..keli..
- xleh makan sotong
- xleh angkat benda yg berat2
- xleh naik tangga laju2..aku naik tangga cam orang jepun jalan pakai kimono jek..
- xleh mkn yg masam2 sangat n tajam..mcm strawberi n nenas..
- xleh mkn menda2 yg berangin @ bole menyebabkan angin dlm badan cam pisang nangka,air teh
- xleh minum air sejuk tak kire la letak dlm fridge ke..berais lagi la xleh..
- xleh kena ujan n berembun
- xleh makan nasi yg dah semalaman..nasik sejuk la kire..kan selalu ns mlm2 x abis, sok pagi leh wat ns goreng jek..

Do's
- kena pakai stokin siang n malam
- pakai baju lengan panjang bile kuar umah
- mandi air suam, bukan air sejuk
- sapu minyak angin kat perut, belakang, pinggang n kaki
- minum air yg suam2 aje
- makan makanan yg byk halia (hehe..ni kurang buat sket sbb x suke halia)

emmm.. tu jela kot yg teringat..so kalo ikutkan pantang abis pada 20/05/09..tapi xpela utk kebaikan diri sendiri aku lebih2 kan sket smpai 24/05/09 xpun lebih lagi asalkan b4 our anniversary..eh dah nak anniversary dah? cepatnye dah setahun we both married to each other..kan lagi seronok kalau baby ade..xpela, Allah kasi chance for both of us to celebrate anniversary berdua taun ni :)

starting today, I'm already working!! (but from home la..) so ni depan pc kat umah di dalam waktu kerije..huhu i'm so glad that my team leader is so supportive during this period of time!

and also..in this post, i really would like to thank almost everyone from deepest of my heart..my hubby for taking a really good care of me and support me so much..sorry that you have to do the housework in these 2,3 weeks on behalf of me..i'm really glad u're by my side every single day,hour and minutes..

thanks to our family..mama&abah,makzai,adik,mak&abah,akak,abang&kakna,k.intan sebab beri kami kekuatan utk menghadapi dugaan2 camni..n thanks for the careness n loveliness,nasihat,petua,ubat2..
the most important:
- mama, time kasih sebab jage anak mama ni wlaupun akak jarang2 jage mama mase mama sakit pening..
- makzai, time kasih sebab masakkan makanan yg akak bole mkn, sapu2 minyak, urut2..
- mak, time kasih sebab jage jamie, buatkan air daun2 tu utk mandi, bertungku..

utk sedara mara yg concern n risaukan diriku ini, tengkiu jugak..doakan kami selalu..

utk frens yg bagi support, thanks a lot..fara, u're wif me since day 1 this thing happen and till now..i really appreciate that, my fren!

anyway anyhow, let gone be bygone..hidup mesti diteruskan!! i'm more stabil now - physically and mentally..alhamdulillah..

bila dugaan melanda...

today we had a bad day..after 8 weeks of pregnancy, today doctor has confirmed that i've miscarriage..to tell the truth, today me and hubby was very very sad and i couldn't stop crying..rase macam org tak betul pun ade..kejap tergelak when hubby tries to make me happy but suddenly nanges pulak..dugaan yg berat Allah dah turunkan pada hambaNya berdua ni..hanya kitorang yg tau macam mane sedih n frustratednye perasaan bile doc ckp camtu..

kesahnye start bile 25th April tu kitorang pegi Cameron Highlands for jalan2..ikut hubby's bro n his family pegi sane for 2 days 1 nite trip.. (citer jalan2 kat CH ni akan masuk nanti2 la ye..)

Sunday morning on 26th April tu..bangun pagi n mase nak mandi tgk ade mcm stain n a few drops of ketulan kecik2 darah..ala mcm time peot dah last2 tu..i was so shocked n rase tak sedap ati sangat2..tapi perut tak sakit pun..so after taking bath, i told me hubby n kitorang mcm da cuak gile..so later on, bile nak kuar tu, cite la kat Kak Na..die pun ckp suh relax2 sket arini n x kasi buat byk aktiviti sgt..

so sepanjang ari Ahad tu..i was careful enuff..jalan pun slow2 je to make sure that no blood or stain coming out again..sampai la kitorang balik petang tu..nothing comes out..by the time sampai umah dalam 11++ PM n nak tuka baju sume, i did checked again..this time, stain ade balik, n byk sket dari pagi tadi..i was already crying when i told hubby..hati aku separuh cakap baby still leh survive, sparuh lagi ckp memang dah takde..

we both blank n xtau nak g klinik mane tengah2 malam camni..i did asked Fara n she told me to go to a maternity clinic at Puchong..so pegi la carik..carik2 tak jumpe so kitorang balik n nak carik area Equine..kebetulan lalu depan Poliklinik Fatima n nampak die tulis "22 hours"..still open!! so kitorang pegi..doc lelaki tapi emergency, belasah jela..

lepas cite sume kat doc..die pun scan..die ckp, pada die..i am miscarriage..so sekarang die akan kuar sket2..they called it natural abortion..kandungan x menjadi..it was supposed 8 weeks but the size shows only 5 weeks..at this time, i cried n cried smpai doc pun pujuk jangan nanges lagi..but i couldn't stop..i was thankful that the doc is actually a gynae but end up duk kat general clinic..

so pagi soknye..pegi klinik Qistina sebab 1st checkup n scan buat kat situ..n the doc refer aku pegi Specialist - An-Nur kat Bangi..result yang kitorang dapat? same je mcm doc kat Poliklinik Fatima tu ckp..

so what i need to do..is rest..and rest..but the fetus will still be gone..as the doc said "In this kind of situation, only God knows why.." so dalam mase 1 minggu aku berehat tu..still kuar stain2 aje n no blood..n dalam minggu ni jugak what we have to do is kembali ke alam nyata n redha dengan smua ketentuanNya..

bye bye baby..thanks for being with mommy even for just 8 weeks..you do make me and ur dad happy..but Allah loved u the most..moga selepas ni kitorang dimurahkan rezeki untuk dapat anak lagi..insyallah..semua yang berlaku tu ader hikmahnye..

My Pregnology pulak..hehe

Baru2 ni ade tjumper website ni : http://www.pregnology.com/ emm..useful gak la dlm tracking kite punye pregnancy..so pada hari ini (hari aku menulis entry ni la kan..) i'm actually 7weeks 3days peknen..mudah2an sumenye selamat smpai cukup masenye nanti..aminn =)



Make a pregnancy ticker

My DaisyPath!

tadi baru je create Daisy Path..hehe buat mase ni create utk Anniversary Years dulu la..nanti create yg lain pulak.. comel tak?? :D

yeay today is Saturday..and our activity for today is....(drum roll plezzz..) Zoo Negaraaa..!!

takde keje ke bebudak neh? ~~ xde tempat lain da ke nak pegi? ~~ alahai..pegi zoo??!!

msti konpem most of u guys will thought as above when I mentioned that we went to the Zoo Negara, kan? well..u guys are wrong..teeetttt..!! untuk sesapa yg tak penah terpk nak gi jenjalan Zoo Negara, you might want to consider it again..bess oo pegi zoo..bess mase kecik2 lain, bess mase beso panjang ni laen plak..so u all kena try.. :-D

it was very fun! tak terasa pun bjalan 3,4 jam dalam tuh..tengok binatang..ramai rupenye org pegi zoo wiken2..ingat coti sekolah je..berbekalkan sandwich, air mineral, twister orange dan biskut2 dari umah..me and hubby smpai @ zoo dalam pkul 11 lebih..da terlambat sebenarnye..plan nak gi pagi..biaso la..hehe

anyway, Zoo Negara can actually improve their services and the Zoo's environment tho..for the expenses (entrance, facilities and food), they can do much much better! FYI, the cost is as below:-
Carpark Fees = RM 4 for car
Entrance Fees = RM 15 per person
Train Ride (bas kecik) = RM 3 per person, per round
Foods / Drinks = double up the normal price

IMHO, train ride tu tak yah bayar2 dah..patutnye leh naik kat mane2 kite suke n turun kat mane2 kite suke jugak (tapi msti la turun kat bus stop die) sebab currently bole turun halfway kat Bus Stop No.4 aje..and also the RM3 ticket is ONLY for one round..pastu kalo nak naik balik, kena beli lagi la..buat duit tul kan?

environment pulak..kalo lebih bersih dan cantik menarik, msti lagi tertarik..but overall, oookeeeiii la..we're excited eventhough exhausted and really happy eventhough hot! tapi kelakanye tu..leh lak ujan sekejap2 mase dlm zoo..hehe so time2 ujan turun berlari la carik tempat berteduh..

and cambiase..gamba di bawah for your views.. ;)

before i ended my write-ups for today..i'm sure you wanna know the stori-mori bout my check-up wif doc today rite? hehe..so pas balik dari zoo..makan2 rehat2..pegi la klinik..trus ckp kat doc nak wat peknensi test..doc tnye when my last period and it was 26/2/2009 (sibbaik note down kat calendar enpon..huhu)

so..after the test completed, doc confirmed that both of us were going to be a mummy and daddy!! wee-heee...alhamdulillah!! and doc expected that my baby was 5 weeks-and-a-half old..kecik lagi die..and due date dlm middle of December..hem hem hem..

so, i'll remember this "4-4-09" date which is the 1st experience in my life that doc confirmed that we'll be having a baby..we're so happy!

sambung nanti~~~

kisah tiga april dua ribu sembilan

alkesahnye pada ari jumaat 3rd of April 2009 ni..aku coti2 mesia arini sebab terasa sangat malas n boring g keje..plus nak berehat kat umah plus berjalan2 ngn hubby..

bangun pepagi je tetibe terasa nak wat peknensi test..lagipun peot da lambat seminggu..so buat la ngan penuh rase debaran di dada..tadaaa..nampak mcm ade 2 garis jek..tul ke nih? macam x percaye pun ade..tapi garis yg satu tu mcm blur2 je..so biar la lame sket..

then da siap2 sume..panggil hubby yg ade kat bawah suh naik atas..hehe die nmpk je mende tu trus tersengih2 tapi terharu..alhamdulillah, Allah kabulkan doa kami berdua dan doa sesiapa juga yg berdoa untuk kami..tapi kitorang macam sure tak sure la..so decided to meet the doc tomorrow..saje nak simpan satu ari..hehe

so for celebration, kitorang pegi tengok Fast N Furious 4..hehe (tapi da plan awal2 before I did the pregnancy test pun..huhu)

so macam mane agak2 nye..+ve ke tak? tungguuu..