bila dugaan melanda...

today we had a bad day..after 8 weeks of pregnancy, today doctor has confirmed that i've miscarriage..to tell the truth, today me and hubby was very very sad and i couldn't stop crying..rase macam org tak betul pun ade..kejap tergelak when hubby tries to make me happy but suddenly nanges pulak..dugaan yg berat Allah dah turunkan pada hambaNya berdua ni..hanya kitorang yg tau macam mane sedih n frustratednye perasaan bile doc ckp camtu..

kesahnye start bile 25th April tu kitorang pegi Cameron Highlands for jalan2..ikut hubby's bro n his family pegi sane for 2 days 1 nite trip.. (citer jalan2 kat CH ni akan masuk nanti2 la ye..)

Sunday morning on 26th April tu..bangun pagi n mase nak mandi tgk ade mcm stain n a few drops of ketulan kecik2 darah..ala mcm time peot dah last2 tu..i was so shocked n rase tak sedap ati sangat2..tapi perut tak sakit pun..so after taking bath, i told me hubby n kitorang mcm da cuak gile..so later on, bile nak kuar tu, cite la kat Kak Na..die pun ckp suh relax2 sket arini n x kasi buat byk aktiviti sgt..

so sepanjang ari Ahad tu..i was careful enuff..jalan pun slow2 je to make sure that no blood or stain coming out again..sampai la kitorang balik petang tu..nothing comes out..by the time sampai umah dalam 11++ PM n nak tuka baju sume, i did checked again..this time, stain ade balik, n byk sket dari pagi tadi..i was already crying when i told hubby..hati aku separuh cakap baby still leh survive, sparuh lagi ckp memang dah takde..

we both blank n xtau nak g klinik mane tengah2 malam camni..i did asked Fara n she told me to go to a maternity clinic at Puchong..so pegi la carik..carik2 tak jumpe so kitorang balik n nak carik area Equine..kebetulan lalu depan Poliklinik Fatima n nampak die tulis "22 hours"..still open!! so kitorang pegi..doc lelaki tapi emergency, belasah jela..

lepas cite sume kat doc..die pun scan..die ckp, pada die..i am miscarriage..so sekarang die akan kuar sket2..they called it natural abortion..kandungan x menjadi..it was supposed 8 weeks but the size shows only 5 weeks..at this time, i cried n cried smpai doc pun pujuk jangan nanges lagi..but i couldn't stop..i was thankful that the doc is actually a gynae but end up duk kat general clinic..

so pagi soknye..pegi klinik Qistina sebab 1st checkup n scan buat kat situ..n the doc refer aku pegi Specialist - An-Nur kat Bangi..result yang kitorang dapat? same je mcm doc kat Poliklinik Fatima tu ckp..

so what i need to do..is rest..and rest..but the fetus will still be gone..as the doc said "In this kind of situation, only God knows why.." so dalam mase 1 minggu aku berehat tu..still kuar stain2 aje n no blood..n dalam minggu ni jugak what we have to do is kembali ke alam nyata n redha dengan smua ketentuanNya..

bye bye baby..thanks for being with mommy even for just 8 weeks..you do make me and ur dad happy..but Allah loved u the most..moga selepas ni kitorang dimurahkan rezeki untuk dapat anak lagi..insyallah..semua yang berlaku tu ader hikmahnye..

My Pregnology pulak..hehe

Baru2 ni ade tjumper website ni : http://www.pregnology.com/ emm..useful gak la dlm tracking kite punye pregnancy..so pada hari ini (hari aku menulis entry ni la kan..) i'm actually 7weeks 3days peknen..mudah2an sumenye selamat smpai cukup masenye nanti..aminn =)



Make a pregnancy ticker

My DaisyPath!

tadi baru je create Daisy Path..hehe buat mase ni create utk Anniversary Years dulu la..nanti create yg lain pulak.. comel tak?? :D

yeay today is Saturday..and our activity for today is....(drum roll plezzz..) Zoo Negaraaa..!!

takde keje ke bebudak neh? ~~ xde tempat lain da ke nak pegi? ~~ alahai..pegi zoo??!!

msti konpem most of u guys will thought as above when I mentioned that we went to the Zoo Negara, kan? well..u guys are wrong..teeetttt..!! untuk sesapa yg tak penah terpk nak gi jenjalan Zoo Negara, you might want to consider it again..bess oo pegi zoo..bess mase kecik2 lain, bess mase beso panjang ni laen plak..so u all kena try.. :-D

it was very fun! tak terasa pun bjalan 3,4 jam dalam tuh..tengok binatang..ramai rupenye org pegi zoo wiken2..ingat coti sekolah je..berbekalkan sandwich, air mineral, twister orange dan biskut2 dari umah..me and hubby smpai @ zoo dalam pkul 11 lebih..da terlambat sebenarnye..plan nak gi pagi..biaso la..hehe

anyway, Zoo Negara can actually improve their services and the Zoo's environment tho..for the expenses (entrance, facilities and food), they can do much much better! FYI, the cost is as below:-
Carpark Fees = RM 4 for car
Entrance Fees = RM 15 per person
Train Ride (bas kecik) = RM 3 per person, per round
Foods / Drinks = double up the normal price

IMHO, train ride tu tak yah bayar2 dah..patutnye leh naik kat mane2 kite suke n turun kat mane2 kite suke jugak (tapi msti la turun kat bus stop die) sebab currently bole turun halfway kat Bus Stop No.4 aje..and also the RM3 ticket is ONLY for one round..pastu kalo nak naik balik, kena beli lagi la..buat duit tul kan?

environment pulak..kalo lebih bersih dan cantik menarik, msti lagi tertarik..but overall, oookeeeiii la..we're excited eventhough exhausted and really happy eventhough hot! tapi kelakanye tu..leh lak ujan sekejap2 mase dlm zoo..hehe so time2 ujan turun berlari la carik tempat berteduh..

and cambiase..gamba di bawah for your views.. ;)

before i ended my write-ups for today..i'm sure you wanna know the stori-mori bout my check-up wif doc today rite? hehe..so pas balik dari zoo..makan2 rehat2..pegi la klinik..trus ckp kat doc nak wat peknensi test..doc tnye when my last period and it was 26/2/2009 (sibbaik note down kat calendar enpon..huhu)

so..after the test completed, doc confirmed that both of us were going to be a mummy and daddy!! wee-heee...alhamdulillah!! and doc expected that my baby was 5 weeks-and-a-half old..kecik lagi die..and due date dlm middle of December..hem hem hem..

so, i'll remember this "4-4-09" date which is the 1st experience in my life that doc confirmed that we'll be having a baby..we're so happy!

sambung nanti~~~

kisah tiga april dua ribu sembilan

alkesahnye pada ari jumaat 3rd of April 2009 ni..aku coti2 mesia arini sebab terasa sangat malas n boring g keje..plus nak berehat kat umah plus berjalan2 ngn hubby..

bangun pepagi je tetibe terasa nak wat peknensi test..lagipun peot da lambat seminggu..so buat la ngan penuh rase debaran di dada..tadaaa..nampak mcm ade 2 garis jek..tul ke nih? macam x percaye pun ade..tapi garis yg satu tu mcm blur2 je..so biar la lame sket..

then da siap2 sume..panggil hubby yg ade kat bawah suh naik atas..hehe die nmpk je mende tu trus tersengih2 tapi terharu..alhamdulillah, Allah kabulkan doa kami berdua dan doa sesiapa juga yg berdoa untuk kami..tapi kitorang macam sure tak sure la..so decided to meet the doc tomorrow..saje nak simpan satu ari..hehe

so for celebration, kitorang pegi tengok Fast N Furious 4..hehe (tapi da plan awal2 before I did the pregnancy test pun..huhu)

so macam mane agak2 nye..+ve ke tak? tungguuu..

Chelsea VS Malaysia..it's a football match!!

hubby took me to a football match at Stadium Shah Alam and it's Chelsea VS Malaysia!! to be honest, i'm not a footballer-fan type (yawning a few times during the match..haha) but when hubby asking me to accompany him - eventhough his frens and brother was there..i was like "why not? bukan selalu pegi tengok bola and we're watching Chelsea btw!" and the most important, this is the 1st time we're going to see a live football match TOGETHER =D how sweeeett?

i think the last time tengok bola is..is..emm..bile ek? errghh..otak blank jap..kat kuantan kot? watching Pahang lawan sapetah with Kak Intan n Abg Doni..i guess? masa tu skolah2 lagi la..hehe..but when thinking again, now, me watching Pahang play football? funny!! haha..

ok back to the Chelsea VS Malaysia game, the day before tu what i was thinking is "nak pakai baju ape" bole tak? hubby surely going to wear his Chelsea's jersey..he's a fan anyway! but I don't have any jersey..and I think I'm not gonna wear any color that represent Chelsea or Malaysia (am i sound so not patriotic? dun think that way..Malaysia still negara tanah tumpahnya darahku!haha) so I choose to wear a black color T-Shirt..kan senang?

if you wondering about the crowds, it's BIGGGGG...ramai gile orang! we only bought the cheapest seat and that's why you'll see the tiny tiny little people in the picture huhu..but during the 2nd half, pas beli2 air..kitorang berjaya tukar seat kepada yg mahal sikit..kekeke the doors are widely open and no one cares! so tak salah la kan..hehehe.. oh ya, talking about the minuman and makanan..bole sakit jantung taw..that's why we just bought some drinks but not the foods..mahal sangat untuk makan makanan macam burger n mihun goreng yang dah sejuk! i hardly can't remember how much..

eh? i didn't write anything bout how the game going isn't it? haha lupe pulak..overall the game was O-K..coz i think (and others who are really know to watch football ckp) Chelsea is not playing at their truly standard..maybe it's just a frenly match ataupun tak nak Malaysia kalah besar, i don't know..and Malaysia is playing bersungguh-sungguh..congrats! congrats! and how much both of these teams scored? alamak..i totally forgot..i'll ask hubby and will update this entry with the scores later okay..haha kantoi!nampak sangat tak menghayati bola..

we both balik dalam kul 12 midnite camtu after we waited the footballers' buses to say our last Gudbye (dari jauh je ye..jangan berangan)..balik2 singgah mamak sebab lapa nih x makan lagi..and that is how this day ended..

oh ya..i did managed to get something as a buah tangan walaupun mende itu takde kena mengena ngn Chelsea ataupun Malaysia team..haha tadaaaa..wat kenang-kenangan..

cekak rambut bertanduk berlampu..hahaha

Honeymoon @ Sabah - Day 3

amik kau lama gila nak tunggu sambungan entry honeymoon ni kan sampai dah luper! haha..

On our 3rd day at Sabah, we decided to go to one of the island tapi tak tau nak pegi island aper..there are so so so many island that you can choose, depending on what kind of activity you wanna do. Pagi lepas breakfast, kitorang pun check-out tapi tinggal barang2 semua kat reception dulu. Takkan nak bawak barang naik bot pegi pulau kan? haha.. Then we took a bus (dah terrer dah) and stopped at Jesselton Point ~ jetty la tu..So lepas dibriefing oleh orang yang bertugas kat situ, kitorang pun sepakat membawa berkat memilih Pulau Manukan as our destination.

 pintu gerbang Jesselton Point

posing2 sambil menunggu boat sampai..

Pas naik bot (saket montot oo naik bot rupenye) and safely arrived at Pulau Manukan, kitorang pun dah tuka baju sume..jalan2 tengok kawasan sekeliling dan ape yang bole dibuat..tetibe, ade sorang brader ni tanye..

"Dik, nak main ape bole pilih..harga saye kasi spesel" (mcm aku tak tau die ckp camtu kat sume org..kot?)
"Ape bole main bang?"
"Banana boat ade..sume ade tapi saye suggest adik try ni..parasailing..lagipun bole naek 2orang.."
"Parasailing tu cemane bang..banana boat bestnyee!!"
"Parasailing tu nanti korang kena gantung tak bertali..eh silap..korang gantung tinggi2 sambil ditarik oleh bot. Banana boat tu minimum 3orang naek la dik.."
"Ala ye ke..okla bole la try parasailing tu.." (dupdap cemane pulak ropanya mendealah ni??!)

Conversation pasal harga sume aku dah lupe..tapi kalo tak silap, RM 90 kot untuk 15-20mins..mahal ke murah aku tatau..yang penting enjoy!! hehe..

Aku ingat panas naik mende ni sebab masa tu tengahari..ropanya..sejuk menggigilll!!! agaknye sebab sekali sekala die jatuhkan kitorang dalam air kot..pastu ngn anginnye lagi..tapi it was fun! seriouuusss!

mase ni baru nak diterbangkan..muke xcited tuh!

 uihhh..tingginyerr di udara!

yeayy! dah selamat mendarat kat bot balik..

Dah setel parasailing, we have a rest for a while pastu sambung snorkeling pulak..tapi snorkel dekat bawah jeti je..hehe ni aktiviti nak penuhkan masa sebelum boat untuk bawak kitorang balik ke Jesselton Point sampai dalam pukul 2pm macam tu kot..tak dapat nak spend time longer kat Pulau Manukan yang cantek giler ni sebab we have another place to go..yang pasti nak kena check-in kat sane pulak he he he..gamba snorkel takleh la nak letak..sensored la pulak kan!

We heading back to our hotel to pick up our luggage and the hotel helped us to call a cab..sebab nak pegi next destination will take around 45mins from KK city..mane kitorang nak pegi ek? emm..let's have this teaser first..

oh canteknye sunset ini kan??dimanakah kami berada?

It's Karambunai..some say its heaven! Eh tu slogan untuk tempat tinggal nye..kat mane?

Yup, we are in Nexus Resort & Spa Karambunai, Sabah..one of the luxurious resort here and I did managed to book the Ocean view..iaitu mengadap pantai la..satu lagi Golf view maka mengadap la bola golf ~ sesuai untuk golfer sahaje okei..Kalau diikutkan normal ratenye masa ni (later2 tak tau la), it's almost RM 1K per nite tapi tak disangka2 bile call diorang, dapat half price! Rezeki Tuhan nak kasi..alhamdulillah..

We stayed here for only one nite..cukuplah nak merasa kan..lagipun kat sini jauh dari bandar, so if you stayed here with no transportation, you'll end up makan,beriadah,bermain dalam resort sahaja which will of course cost you more..tapi once in a while, y don't betul tak? nama pun hanimun :D

Too many things to describe what Nexus can offer you for the best stay in here..tengok gamba jelah!

Oh Belaian Jiwaaa..bestnye ade orang nyanyi sambil dinner!

 suke yee dapat main hehe..

berat tau mendealah chess ni..

ni masa breakfast keesokkannye..breakfast yang best n macam2 untuk dimakan

bersantai di tepi pantai..auww romantiks!

yeah this is our room! king size bed dan room yang sangggaatt beso..toiletnye sanggaattt cantek tapi lupo nak amik gamba..aduh!

coz at Manukan we've already did the Parasailing (which is obviously wifey's choice) makanya kat Nexus ni kasi chance kat hubby untuk pilih aktiviti and he choose to Canoe..yang lawaknye tu, excited sangat berkayak sampai ke tengah pastu baru perasan sekeliling kitorang tu Jellyfish!!! Oh my Gucci!! Terus cecepat kayuh balik ke tepi pantai..rupenye tengah musim..kitorang yang tak perasan diorang pacak signboard. Huh ngeri!

iyer inilah kayak kami :)

tengok air nye..jernih kan??!! yer sangat cantek pantai Karambunai neh!

in front of our room..nak balek dah sob sob..

ni depan Nexus entrancenye..

We checked out from Nexus around noon and a taxi has waited to send us to the airport..it's time to say goodbye to Sabah and our wonderful memories throughout our honeymoon here..

Touched down at KLIA around 7++PM and we took ERL all the way to BTS station where Kak Intan picked us up there..sebab keta tinggal kat umah die hehe..

muke letih kat airport KK..

muke cargas balik sebab dah pulun tido dlm flight :D

we in the ERL..here we are, KeyEll!

Akhernye tamat kesah hanimun kami..insyallah will be back to Sabah lagi..tapi maybe kali ni ke belah2 Ranau pulak kot?